For many years (decades!?) I struggled with the sharp contrast between how I wanted to live and how I actually lived, trying hard to do the things that people around me seemed to enjoy or find important, yet generally feeling inadequate, frustrated and pretty much out of the loop because I wasn’t interested in those things for the most part.
Through yoga and astrology, I was able to see how important it was to be as true to myself as possible, or else experience the suffering which comes from not living in alignment with my deepest desires.
This did and still does require some difficult choices, sometimes perceived as downright anti-social by those for whom socialising and mainstream living follows certain defined norms, times and dates, many of which are performed ritually by people who actually would far rather be doing something else. I have come to embrace my “otherness”, my need for solitude, no longer feeling like I need to make excuses to avoid doing things that really didn’t interest me or make me happy, but which are considered de rigueur by much of society.
As an irrigator guides water to the fields, as an archer aims an arrow, as a carpenter carves wood, the wise shape their lives. ~ The Buddha
I have taken a distance from those who don’t understand, and am grateful for the loving support and acceptance I get from those who do! As the Buddha taught, our Sangha – our circle of friends – makes the difference between success or failure on our chosen path.
Yoga teaches us to feel our way through life, as we become so familiar with the myriad ways the body (especially the heart!) speaks to us about which direction to take, always through the mindfulness of the present moment. Astrology – long practiced by yogis like Sri Yukteshwar who recognised our interconnection with all forms of energy and consciousness – confirms this deep, intuitive knowing that our feelings (beyond thoughts) are always trying to show us. I have seen hundreds of birth charts, and undoubtedly each one is unique, showing how each individual is here to express this life in a marvelous never-before-seen, never-to-be-seen-again way.
We each have a personal gift to offer, expressed through our many talents and in numerous different ways; a unique shape that fits uniquely into this cosmic puzzle we all share. If you are fulfilling and expanding into your deepest desire, you are allowing your greatest contribution to support all of life around you.
If you aren’t, we are all missing out on your gifts – we need you to be you! There is no such thing as “the average person” – the uniqueness of every life form is what makes this world such a marvel.
“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back — concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” ~ J-W von Goethe
Once you decide which direction to take, trust that life will support and guide you along the way, introducing you to the right people, ideas and means to make your work possible.
This little human life we have is so brief – live it fully knowing that the way you truly are cannot be a mistake. Imperfection is only possible through the judgements of the ego, and if you wait for perfection you will never find the courage to express who you are. But in the eyes of life itself, everything already is a perfect offering.
I wish you every joy and success with your self-discovery in 2016!
With love and light,